I am so over food. I’m over eating. It hurts me, I feel sick. I just want black tea in paper cups with coffee straws and to walk on my treadmill for a thousand years. I don’t want boobs, I don’t want hips, I don’t want to look like a sexual being. I don’t want to menstruate I don’t need to feel like a human anymore. Even when I eat I get lightheaded and feel like I’m going to pass out. My teeth have that permanent feeling of purge on them. I’m just done. EDNOS is shit, because it comes in phases, and it repeats itself. Binge/Purge phase has served its purpose. I feel like shit, all the time, regardless of whether I eat or drink. I don’t want that anymore. I just can’t eat, there is no other option for me.
Plan for today…
Food…
Slimming world cereal bar for breakfast (117 kcal)
Kiwi for lunch (45 kcal)
Whole grain pasta for dinner with veggies (240 kcal)
Drinks
2 liters of water throughout the day
TEA
Exercise:
Working out at home
Revision:
English literature - lord of the flies and mr pip
Yay :)
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Plan for tomorrow..
tea for breakfast
Kiwi for lunch
Whatever mum cooks for dinner
plus plenty of revision! I’ll try to go to the gym as well xx